On being worrisome

I just had a bout with anxiety. Today is the day I had planned to apply at Target, and it’s even been lazy of me to have put it off this long. So I realized that I needed to get it done, the problem is that I realized this after I had gone to Riverpark to get some hummus and pitas (those are great, btw), and had already taken 15 minutes to look in REI since it’s fairly new and I hadn’t been in it yet. So I figured I would just stick to the homework schedule that I had already planned out and come home and watch Gundam (that was a bad idea, by the way, since I ended up watching two episodes instead of one). Then, I decided it was too late to apply there.  Well, I sat down and tried to do some homework and was just fidgety and anxious.  I couldn’t get anything done, really.  I even tried picking up the Bible for the first time today (maybe that was the problem), but I still couldn’t get focused.  So I prayed instead, and I just told God my worries and gave it up to him.  It was such a blessing.  So what was the lesson?  We need to be giving God everything.  I looked up Matthew 6:25 and read the whole passage.

25 “Therefore I tell you, do not be anxious about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink, nor about your body, what you will put on. Is not life more than food, and the body more than clothing? 26 Look at the birds of the air: they neither sow nor reap nor gather into barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not of more value than they? 27And which of you by being anxious can add a single hour to his span of life? 28And why are you anxious about clothing? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow: they neither toil nor spin, 29yet I tell you, even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these. 30But if God so clothes the grass of the field, which today is alive and tomorrow is thrown into the oven, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31Therefore do not be anxious, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the Gentiles seek after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them all. 33But seek first the kingdom of God and his righteousness, and all these things will be added to you.

 34 “Therefore do not be anxious about tomorrow, for tomorrow will be anxious for itself. Sufficient for the day is its own trouble.

So what did I learn?  Life isn’t about all of the things we think it is.  I talked to Ryan and he told me I could still apply, and sure enough they still have positions available, though I doubt I will be hired for sales floor, I hope that I get hired for the stockroom with Ryan and Matt.  Regardless of what happens, I need to be content with God.  So that is what I will endeavor to do: be content with God.